Sacred Spiral Synergy

Today I walked

It was grey

I ran

They flowed

I love you Marky, today and all days

Today I prayed and felt my spirit
Today I did yoga and felt my body
Today I walked and felt my tears
Today I ran and felt my breath
Today I exhaled and felt my loss
Today I looked and felt you… everywhere
I love you Marky… today and all days!

Awakening before the sun with the taste of tears in my mouth, thoughts of frustration swirling through my mind and disappointment pricking my heart. How can I be here again, hurting, limited? I hobble and limp through my morning routine choking back more tears in stubborn defiance. Breathe. Pour the coffee. Make more coffee. Drink the coffee. Breathe…

I will engage in my morning routine…even if I have to stand, squirm, squat, kneel and swear! I will find peace…dammit! So I read…

and this is the message my eyes fell upon and my heart opened to…

What a reframe! Moving frustration and disappointment to gratitude, humility and hope…magical really.

So I will walk this day reflecting rather than condemning, honoring rather than resisting, flowing rather than grasping/clawing/demanding…releasing control and need to know to find grace, dissolving fear and anger to embrace hope and faith…going with the flow rather than treading water or fighting the natural current of things.

May my tears remove that which no longer serves and cleanse me of any toxic thoughts, emotions, memories, beliefs, conditions

emptying me so I may be made whole

placing me in the flow of things, so I may be open and receptive to the now and the greater yet to be

holding me so I may learn, heal and grow

allowing me to dance in the flow…fluid, guided and lifted

to be…

For oh so many years I’ve looked to the earth for my sacred souvenirs in the form of heart shaped rocks. Lately, however, I’ve been finding my touchstones in the form of heart shaped clouds. What rich symbolism… while happiness is fleeting, joy is the stable manifestation of deliberate, sacred, daily spiritual practice(s). May our joyous hearts soar.
Love, ME

Time moves quickly these days!  The amount of ‘shedding that which no longer serves’ coupled with the amount of opportunities to show up differently…has made it difficult to feel rooted.  Roots need time to run deeply and after all the shedding and planting anew, we can be left feeling vulnerable with these shallow roots.  To gather advice on how to work with this vulnerable state and continue to deepen our roots…rather than let fear lead us into defensiveness…I turned to the cards (Wisdom of the Hidden Realms by Colette Baron-Reid) to ask:

How may we continue to show up authentically, while in the midst of re-rooting ourselves?

THE ANCHOR:

#37, The Metal King…discipline, armor, boundaries

Now is a time to set clear boundaries.  A clearly set boundary, is a healthy alternative for all involved.  It replaces masks and walls that keep you isolated and separated, while maintaining a space where you can continue to unfold and expand safely.  This may also assist you in the necessary task of determining where you end and another/others begin. You can not control, nor are you responsible for others’ emotions.

THE STORY:

#31, The Prison Waif…self-sabotage, poverty consciousness

Part of your re-rooting process is to be mindful of your thoughts, as these are co-creating your reality.  This card suggests that you may be keeping yourself from your highest good by harboring such defeating thoughts/beliefs as the following:  “I can’t do this.” “I’m unworthy.” “I’ll fail, so why try?” “I don’t deserve this.” “I’m unlovable.”  Don’t let these slither back into the roots of who you are.  Call them out for what they are…lies based on fear…and reaffirm your chosen truths ie. nurture your new roots so they may run deep!

#28, The Ice Queen…ideas preserved, nonaction, entitlement

During this time of rerooting, we must settle in to nonaction in order to remain present with our developing selves. This pushes against our desire to define ourselves by the content of our schedules and/or let how busy we are define our value.  Our new roots shift us to define ourselves…internally…rather than allow the material world to define us…externally.  This places both the ability, as well as the responsibility, back on us to define ourselves, our worth and what we stand for…and we must be present to do so!  So, as The Ice Queen suggests, preserve your ideas for now as they will best serve at a later time…and be present and mindful to your own becoming.

#2, The High Lord of Gratitude and Service…selflessness, humility, conscious action

This card suggests that if you allow the story to unfold as suggested by the cards…you will be led to this…finding your true purpose.  Settling into presence and nonaction will lead to clarity and an awareness of what truly is, and what truly matters both individually as well as collectively.  Nurturing the ‘attitude of gratitude’ root will reinforce your foundation and keep you on an enlightened path guided by right thought and led to right action.  This is where you will serve your highest good.

We are all connected, there are no friends and no enemies, just teachers along the way…be grateful for what they have taught you <:

AFFIRMATION: from The Good Tarot, by Colette Baron-Reid

#11 Justice – Karma

“The law of cause and effect is in play now as I see elements in my life balance out.  What goes around comes around.  I’m now seeing evidence of this law in the conditions of my world.”

We are responsible for ourselves, for the benefit of ourselves, as well as the collective!

And so it is…

Love, ME

While readying my bath for a meditative journey I got to thinking about time.   I remember feeling like time would suffocate me, during my pre-mom days.  I could never find enough distractions to keep me from bumping into myself, feeling my feelings, thinking my thoughts.  Then early young mom days, I remember never having enough time to ‘get my thoughts straight’ as now I was busy caring for others, which I loved, but you know…  Then, in my 30’s, I had a schedule filled with distractions, responsibilities and demands, had I ‘arrived?’  No, ultimately this just kept me distracted and disconnected from myself.  Then at 40, I moved away from all I knew, all which defined me and by which I defined myself.  Time shifted.  I was unemployed, no longer defining myself by my important job or crazy schedule.  I was helping my loved ones adjust to their lives, new roles and responsibilities…drifting in the ambiguity which had become my identity.  I settled after a bit and found many things to fill my days.  Things that filled me with peace and joy and met my social, spiritual, mental and physical needs.  These outlets let me escape my stresses/fears/frustrations/anxiety.  Some served to connect me to like minded souls, some gave me peace/serenity/solitude, while others gave me joy and opportunities to express my spirit.  Then last year, some ‘time’ in March, my back started hurting.  For a while I tried to continue with my outlets…yoga, belly dancing, walking…but one by one I had to give them up, as my pain was getting worse rather than better.  I couldn’t sit for longer than 15 minutes without pain.  I was icing my back in order to be able to sit while meeting with clients and standing at all other times.  Sleeping was restless, frustrating, painful and anything but restful.  Time was again slamming myself into myself…but now with necessary self-care and at a much much slower pace!!  From this limited, very slowed pace of living, my outlets felt like luxuries of times past, never to return.  Sleeping was draining, getting out of bed and dressed and driving to work…hurt.  My pain did not afford me the relaxing options of sitting or laying down, as these induced more pain and I couldn’t do either without heat or ice.  Time seemed slower, staying present was forced upon me, as my body demanded it be acknowledged every moment of every day.  I couldn’t escape myself! I needed to listen to my body and care for it, lest it flare up, intensifying the pain and limiting me more.  Oh how I longed for the times when I could busy myself, distract myself and keep my shtuff at a comfortable arms length, AWAY.  But, daily pain for months and months made this option a distant memory…I needed to settle in and do some work, some mind, body, soul work.  Which, I did.  Eight months in, and weeks before my last day at my job due to the agency closing, I had a MRI done.  I was told that I had a disc that was bulging significantly and surgery was suggested.  This was surreal and shocking as I am otherwise ‘knock on wood’ pretty healthy.  The thought of back surgery seemed premature, drastic and dramatic, however, so I reached out to a chiropractor that a friend had referred me to.  He suggested a treatment plan of 20 sessions including decompression and several other treatments.  This…this, seemed more appropriate for me.  So I signed on the dotted line, paid, declined my neurosurgeon’s suggestion for surgery and had at it.  Today, my friends, marks the end of that journey.  Yesterday, I was able to paint my own toenails for the first time in over a year.  I have been walking, stretching and incorporating some gentle/beginner’s yoga.  I behold the vision of belly dancing in my not so far off future as well.  To be able to enjoy these outlets again has skyrocketed my quality of life and I am beside myself in blessed joy for the ability to expand once again….with opportunities to experience life, rather than my waist line!!  The fact that I had the time but not the physical capacity to participate in these outlets…for a year…led me on a deep, soul searching journey to heal my relationships both with self and time.  Memories are timeless, but time is not limitless. Making peace with my past patterns of rushing and squandering time, fearing and longing for distractions from time and wishing and longing for more time has moved me more toward embracing every present moment to avoid missing any time.  Time is precious! We are precious!  How are you dancing with time these days?

Time moves quickly these days.  Shifts, awakenings, downloads, releases…all. of. the. things!  This post is a demonstration of just that.

Same sign.  Different message.

How deceptive…this ‘No Trespassing’ sign!  Projecting messages of safety, but truly encouraging continued barriers to our full expression.  Enforcing boundaries, suggesting safety while truly keeping the beauty…just. behind. the. sign! Are we keeping others out…or ourselves locked within?!?!  Gone are the days of hiding.  We must look at it all.  For we are meant to shine in all our brilliance, not trudge along displaying only that which we perceive is acceptable by the collective.  Choose your close collective community wisely, so you may be supported in your efforts to chip away at any shields, barriers, masks that keep your magnificence from the world.  We need ALL the gifts right now.  Dare to be big.  Bathe in the beauty of our full La Luna, and let her show you how to SHINE!

Choices…how do you perceive the sign???

Blessings.

Love, ME

How seductive this thought of ‘no trespassing’ on our shadow, our less than beautiful shtuff, can sound! But, alas, there will be no hiding…so…
La Luna, please afford us the strength necessary to see all that you seek to illuminate…for as it is true that we must feel to heal, it is also true that we must survive the shadow to thrive in the light.
This full moon is illuminating all the things and bringing up all the feels.
Go forth bravely…and remember to be gentle with your process♡
Blessings.
Love,  ME

Found this gift on my walk today 😇

Reminder that…

Just because you lose a feather

Doesn’t mean you can’t fly.

Perhaps…

You must firm up your foundation

So that you may soar♡

Blessings.

Love, ME

How may we best work with the energies that flow between the need for strong, firm boundaries and open, flexible ones?

ANCHOR CARD: (Wisdom of the Hidden Realms, C. Baron-Reid)

#16, The Shadow Queen…acquiring knowledge, insecurity, manipulation

Slow down to look within and gather more information.  Investigate and educate yourself on what ‘your true intentions are.’  Shed light on what ‘your true intentions are,’ so you may stand stronger in your truth and create boundaries from there.

THE STORY:

#10, The Arrow Master…hitting the mark, intention, detachment

Deliberately focus your dreams and desires with intention and align your intentions with Spirit.  Then…let your arrow(s) fly, directed by the Divine, unencumbered by your version(s) of how the arrows must travel.

#22, The Resting Tree…patience, stillness

Stop focusing and planning.  Relax into a state of nonaction.  Practice patience!  Allow your relationships to reveal themselves to you, and simply observe the truth of what is.

#44, The Lady of the Mirror…reflection, nonjudgment

Become an observer to the relationships in your life.  Healthy boundaries can only be constructed while clearly seeing yourself mirrored back to you via your relationships while also observing the truth of whom you are in relationships with.  

AFFIRMATION:  (The Good Tarot, C. Baron-Reid)

King of Water…Generous, diplomatic, fair, gentle, a good listener, nonjudgmental peacemaker, mediator

“I honor and respect all beings, including myself, and see the commonalities we share and the Spirit that is in all of us”

“I listen to other voices and blend them with my own wisdom before settling on an opinion, making a decision, or taking an action.”

“I gently and lovingly lead others away from fear and divisiveness and into harmonious collaboration.”

Blessings ❤

Love, ME